Issue 40

  • Fiction,  Issue 40

    Blue Tulips

    art by Jacelyn Yap

    by Abigail Beliles

    “Sydney?” Jamie’s voice resonated throughout the empty house.

    He bit his lip as he pondered how much longer it would be before she would get home. He knew he had to apologize for what happened that morning, but she hadn’t answered her calls all day.  He ignored the tracks from his muddied tennis shoes as he rushed toward the kitchen.

    Her key fob was missing from the rack above the back door. The grease-stained dishes lay scattered in the sink.

  • Fiction,  Issue 40

    Johnny Appleseed

    art by Jacelyn Yap

    by Katie Harms

    Johnny grew up in a tin can trailer with a father who wasn’t a preacher. But his father still preached, and he drove a van hand-painted with God’s Greatest Miracle, the unborn fetus. Johnny was tall and wiry, and his skin was bad—red all over in these great rough patches that peeled away from themselves as if the skin itself didn’t belong on his tired and stretched-out body. And maybe it didn’t; it itched and broke and across his cheeks beneath his eyes were pustules that should’ve been freckles.

  • Fiction,  Issue 40

    Exilers

    art by Alessandro Avondo

    by Alice Russell

    One.

    Downstairs, parallel grooves are worn into wood floor, kitchen chairs dragged out, pushed back. Between the taxidermized heads of a buck and doe, above the fireplace cold with plywood, a garland of red and gold letters spells MERRY. In the corner, Granny’s portrait as a young woman faces a mirror. And at the mantle, a dusty collection of palm-sized birds’ nests, snakeskins, cobwebbed candlesticks, a newly dead bird soft and small. 

    From her studio upstairs, my mother is screaming: “I can’t hear a word you’re saying.” 

  • Issue 40,  Poetry

    Lost

    by Derick Chan

    for Pat, at the corner of Prince & Mott

    We met one day in SoHo, right across
    from Old St. Pat’s Cathedral. Through the crowds
    I headed north and late for happy hour,
    sharing an urban sense of self-reserve
    to hardly hear a stranger’s call, but as
    the sun began to sink between the rows
    of city blocks I saw you tapping with
    your cane against a row of Citi Bikes.
    You called, “Can someone tell me where I am?
    Can someone help me out?” Averted eyes
    in answer: Yes,

  • Issue 40,  Poetry

    Final Boy Remembers the Boogeyman

    art by Stephanie Ann Farra

    by Stephen S. Mills

    a story told over & over & over until it becomes a shadow of itself / boogeymen thrive / the dead of night / Halloween maybe / most definitely fall / a crunch of leaves / a stick that cracks against a sneaker / that silence of midwestern nights / the ones of your childhood / dressed as a dinosaur/ your mother made / roaming the neighborhood for treats / never tricks / tricks would come later in the heat of Orlando / that Florida humidity / where you spent three nights a week at a gay club/ sometimes in costume / never a dinosaur / sometimes shirtless / chest tight with youth / bones and skin / and a time or two in less / a foam party that was all slick hands &

  • Issue 40,  Poetry

    from: The Greenland

    art by Stephanie Ann Farra

    by Ann Pedone

    It’s only when we choose
    to move through the poem
    as we move through the cunt. And I
    raise my glass
    Invested but sure, but sure, was
    scriven, an unplanned
    pregnancy, who is the
    true mother of my damage

    I mean no, I said, and my unusually
    clean scalp, the pile of teeth
    over by the back
    door, I had a dream of erotic

    Distinctions last night, prefacing
    my translation from the
    original Greek

    Circa,